james makes good music.
classes are interesting.
people write interesting things.
the mind is an ever encompassing vacuum of space, able to suck people into its very core. on a lighter note, here is a poem i wrote.
to plant a heart
this very day
tis to start
to sial the bay
a stormy one, it may be
challengs ahead, you'll see
but of rewards to reap
the will to press on, you'll keep
as this heart is a marker
and the world gets a little darker
we'll shine on like a fire
saving what we can from ire
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Monday, November 15, 2004
Sunday, August 15, 2004
Today, I go offline
Today, I take my computer offline for my move. I'm still leaving on tuesday, but everything needs to be packed today. I'm going to george washington university in Washington DC to study engineering.
My family is road-tripping through the south, it'll be quite the experience. Peace out, I hope to be online after about 2 weeks.
My family is road-tripping through the south, it'll be quite the experience. Peace out, I hope to be online after about 2 weeks.
Friday, August 06, 2004
The future.
Tomarrow's plan:
Hookup with Davyion.
Go to Miranda's birthday party
Go to steven's going away party
drop davyions brother off at quail creek
and the best
GO SEE RASPUTINA AT BRICKTOWN LIVE!!!
I'm so fucking psyched to be seeing them. Morph3us turned me on to them over a year ago and they're such a tight band. I'm so stoked I get to see them tomarrow night.
Anyhow, I leave okc to drive to dc on the 17th or 18th; then I'll be at schoool, George Washington University until christmas time. REM is playing Constitution Hall on Nov1st; my mom is a fanclub member and gets buyout rights to a really nice reserved chunk of the seating, I'm stoked to see them again.
Hookup with Davyion.
Go to Miranda's birthday party
Go to steven's going away party
drop davyions brother off at quail creek
and the best
GO SEE RASPUTINA AT BRICKTOWN LIVE!!!
I'm so fucking psyched to be seeing them. Morph3us turned me on to them over a year ago and they're such a tight band. I'm so stoked I get to see them tomarrow night.
Anyhow, I leave okc to drive to dc on the 17th or 18th; then I'll be at schoool, George Washington University until christmas time. REM is playing Constitution Hall on Nov1st; my mom is a fanclub member and gets buyout rights to a really nice reserved chunk of the seating, I'm stoked to see them again.
Thursday, July 22, 2004
So i'm lazy
Therefore, I haven't posted here in a while.
I spent July 4-10 in Virginia and DC, hung out with Steve and Ben and had a blast with them. I've quit drinking since then, from what Steve described as a "gin and juice wreck." It was neat staying with steve, hes a pretty cool guy. I spent the second half of the week at George Washinton Universtiy, in Washington DC, where I'm going to college at. I did the orientation program, Colonial Inauguration, and got my classes registered.
I'm taking:
I spent July 4-10 in Virginia and DC, hung out with Steve and Ben and had a blast with them. I've quit drinking since then, from what Steve described as a "gin and juice wreck." It was neat staying with steve, hes a pretty cool guy. I spent the second half of the week at George Washinton Universtiy, in Washington DC, where I'm going to college at. I did the orientation program, Colonial Inauguration, and got my classes registered.
I'm taking:
- 2 engineering orientations
- chemistry
- calculus, single variable
- world religions: intro to the east
- intro to western philosphy
15 credit hours, I like my schedule. I met a bunch of neat people there, I'm really going to like that school. The engineering department has such a homey feel to it.
Friday, July 02, 2004
In the infinite vacuum of space I become a god
John Keats. 1795–1821
WHEN I have fears that I may cease to be
Before my pen has glean'd my teeming brain,
Before high pil`d books, in charact'ry,
Hold like rich garners the full-ripen'd grain;
When I behold, upon the night's starr'd face,
Huge cloudy symbols of a high romance,
And feel that I may never live to trace
Their shadows, with the magic hand of chance;
And when I feel, fair creature of an hour!
That I shall never look upon thee more,
Never have relish in the faery power
Of unreflecting love;—then on the shore
Of the wide world I stand alone, and think,
Till Love and Fame to nothingness do sink.
WHEN I have fears that I may cease to be
Before my pen has glean'd my teeming brain,
Before high pil`d books, in charact'ry,
Hold like rich garners the full-ripen'd grain;
When I behold, upon the night's starr'd face,
Huge cloudy symbols of a high romance,
And feel that I may never live to trace
Their shadows, with the magic hand of chance;
And when I feel, fair creature of an hour!
That I shall never look upon thee more,
Never have relish in the faery power
Of unreflecting love;—then on the shore
Of the wide world I stand alone, and think,
Till Love and Fame to nothingness do sink.
Thursday, June 24, 2004
and then i was like weeeee!
I spent time this week in drivers ed; it was my graduation present from my parents, it was that or a new bicycle (I would've prefered the bike). It was interesting, primarily reading from a book, watching 80's instructional videos and talking to cute girls. There were a few neat people in the class, and plenty of not so neat people. I'm going to the DMV for my permit on tuesday morning, hopefully I'll have it done before work.
I met Zenster today, we had lunch at city bites. He was a really nice fella. I'm going to St. Louis this weekend with him and his girlfriend for Damitcon II. Its a get together of (now) old UT99 Assault players; some of them have moved on to UT2k4 Assault. It'll be cool to meet some people I've fragged and been fragged by; meeting people makes it more real, like after meeting Steve from Arrow and That Vela Fella from..well..Vela is everywhere.
I need to get out of the house soon...
I met Zenster today, we had lunch at city bites. He was a really nice fella. I'm going to St. Louis this weekend with him and his girlfriend for Damitcon II. Its a get together of (now) old UT99 Assault players; some of them have moved on to UT2k4 Assault. It'll be cool to meet some people I've fragged and been fragged by; meeting people makes it more real, like after meeting Steve from Arrow and That Vela Fella from..well..Vela is everywhere.
I need to get out of the house soon...
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Saturday, June 12, 2004
A sonnet
Something I wrote for a friend right months ago...but i'm feeling it now.
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Youre two together,
Both one of a kind.
You think forever
You could be in a bind.
Held down by a heavy hand.
You want to change
But find it hard to bend
Youve been banished from that open range.
I see you with him, its evident
That he is yours and you his;
Two friends drawn into an event,
A silent romance it truly is.
A romance hidden from authoritys site
Has the sweetest purr and bite.
======================
Youre two together,
Both one of a kind.
You think forever
You could be in a bind.
Held down by a heavy hand.
You want to change
But find it hard to bend
Youve been banished from that open range.
I see you with him, its evident
That he is yours and you his;
Two friends drawn into an event,
A silent romance it truly is.
A romance hidden from authoritys site
Has the sweetest purr and bite.
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
weird
I've got an awfully queer feeling inside my head.
Its like parts of my life are flying up, soaring with the clouds, whilst others fall down, down in the down deep down. I feel like I'm Westley, saying "As you wish." Or is she saying that to me?
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untitled, 9/25/03
The day is young, full of strength and vitality.
One warrior, iron-willed, will draw upon this vitality.
Tapping from it, he will form his fighting spirit.
A master of the foil, he will ward his enemies away.
Fueling his courage with his hope of love,
Slaying his darkest demons with his vorpal blade.
Aided by his ragtag band of supporters and warriors
He moves to slay the Jaberwock; OH; the beast is closing in.
They draw upon strength and vitality, hardening their swords and steel.
A thrust and a stab; a bite and a swat; volleys of blood.
Success is the warrior, landing a vorpal blow.
Severing the head of the beast he asserts himself as truth.
Fueling his long for love he asserts his quest as true.
Its like parts of my life are flying up, soaring with the clouds, whilst others fall down, down in the down deep down. I feel like I'm Westley, saying "As you wish." Or is she saying that to me?
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untitled, 9/25/03
The day is young, full of strength and vitality.
One warrior, iron-willed, will draw upon this vitality.
Tapping from it, he will form his fighting spirit.
A master of the foil, he will ward his enemies away.
Fueling his courage with his hope of love,
Slaying his darkest demons with his vorpal blade.
Aided by his ragtag band of supporters and warriors
He moves to slay the Jaberwock; OH; the beast is closing in.
They draw upon strength and vitality, hardening their swords and steel.
A thrust and a stab; a bite and a swat; volleys of blood.
Success is the warrior, landing a vorpal blow.
Severing the head of the beast he asserts himself as truth.
Fueling his long for love he asserts his quest as true.
Thursday, May 27, 2004
Wine
I caught a glimpse
Bearing a crisp label
As I stood, the wine lay there
There I stood, without a drop
One fine spring, I found my wine,
Although in tasting, I feel like an ass
of a fine wine,
Bearing a crisp label
it was straight from the vine;
As I stood, the wine lay there
then was taken, fair and square.
There I stood, without a drop
parched and looking with wanderlust
One fine spring, I found my wine,
Tasting a drop, feeling robust,
Although in tasting, I feel like an ass
All I do is crave a class
2 hours
and ten minutes.
i'm almost done with highschool..period. no more classes..no more work...except my video project for the school.
I graduate next week. I've waited the past 3 weeks for this....part of me wants to leave, to go live in dc and part of me wants to stay in oklahoma with everyone. but i'm going, there is no way in hell i'm staying at this point. part of me doesn't want college to be like highschool, with the same people.
make new friends, but keep the old
one is silver and the other is gold
posting from another computer i just fixed...or rather, i troubleshooted the entire network, since that was at fault, not the computer. damn i wish people would think more...
i'm almost done with highschool..period. no more classes..no more work...except my video project for the school.
I graduate next week. I've waited the past 3 weeks for this....part of me wants to leave, to go live in dc and part of me wants to stay in oklahoma with everyone. but i'm going, there is no way in hell i'm staying at this point. part of me doesn't want college to be like highschool, with the same people.
make new friends, but keep the old
one is silver and the other is gold
posting from another computer i just fixed...or rather, i troubleshooted the entire network, since that was at fault, not the computer. damn i wish people would think more...
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Good morning vietnam!!!
Boy, I sure feel perky right now!!!
Headcold....getting up at 3am coughing and sneezing.
What hath I done to bring such a curse down upon my mortal tomb?
Headcold....getting up at 3am coughing and sneezing.
What hath I done to bring such a curse down upon my mortal tomb?
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
Simplicity
A pause, a moment
The chirp of a bird
Such simple things
a kiss or a hug
these simple pleasure are
such pleasures are true beauty
these little things in life
The chirp of a bird
light of the moon
Such simple things
oft forsake today
a kiss or a hug
a humorous friend
these simple pleasure are
passed by in fast society
such pleasures are true beauty
cherish them forever
Bliss
Pros:
I've no finals.
I spent yesterday afternoon at Erlanna's house.
Two people, one whome I never expected to, signed my signature insert for my yearbook in a really really meaningfull way. Noemi and Rosie, you're great.
Cons:
I've got a video project to do for the school.
Erlanna got me sick.
I'm bored out of my mind at my house.
I've no finals.
I spent yesterday afternoon at Erlanna's house.
Two people, one whome I never expected to, signed my signature insert for my yearbook in a really really meaningfull way. Noemi and Rosie, you're great.
Cons:
I've got a video project to do for the school.
Erlanna got me sick.
I'm bored out of my mind at my house.
Monday, May 24, 2004
Sunday
Early..sunday started too early.
Some bastard drag racing in the street woke me up at 4AM, that screwed me up for the day and set the tone for a healthy 7AM morning. I mowed the jungle yesterday. We got new blades for the edger, cuts sharper, deeper, and nicer now. I had to clean out my shoes afterwords, they easily had a handful of dirt, courtesy of the new blades on my edger. I can't stand dirt being in my shoes!! Its easily worse than having waterlogged shoes......Converse high tops are great shoes but they do have their failings.
My mom pissed me off yesterday. She took her bike and "rode down 19th" all the way to lake overholser and back. Through traffic. Through a city not used to bikers. To a lake known for drunken revellers at all hours of the day. On the night before when I wanted to ride my bike downtown to the Museum my parents forbade it. I don't get it; I've already mapped out a route to Nana's through the back rodes, shes got problems getting to my place and I only figure its a 40 minute bike ride.
My dad gave me a driving lesson last night at the shop. This isn't some bad, horribly satirized and dramatized cartoon driving; my dad is a very well trained driver, when he was a race car driver he was well respected off the track, for the amount of respect he paid to people while on it. Parts of it were just constant stop go stop go, nothing too fast. Hes really comfortable to drive with.
Some bastard drag racing in the street woke me up at 4AM, that screwed me up for the day and set the tone for a healthy 7AM morning. I mowed the jungle yesterday. We got new blades for the edger, cuts sharper, deeper, and nicer now. I had to clean out my shoes afterwords, they easily had a handful of dirt, courtesy of the new blades on my edger. I can't stand dirt being in my shoes!! Its easily worse than having waterlogged shoes......Converse high tops are great shoes but they do have their failings.
My mom pissed me off yesterday. She took her bike and "rode down 19th" all the way to lake overholser and back. Through traffic. Through a city not used to bikers. To a lake known for drunken revellers at all hours of the day. On the night before when I wanted to ride my bike downtown to the Museum my parents forbade it. I don't get it; I've already mapped out a route to Nana's through the back rodes, shes got problems getting to my place and I only figure its a 40 minute bike ride.
My dad gave me a driving lesson last night at the shop. This isn't some bad, horribly satirized and dramatized cartoon driving; my dad is a very well trained driver, when he was a race car driver he was well respected off the track, for the amount of respect he paid to people while on it. Parts of it were just constant stop go stop go, nothing too fast. Hes really comfortable to drive with.
Sunday, May 23, 2004
Beautiful Stranger
Everytime you sit and stare
I think you know and are aware;
Time and time again I wish
All you want is a simple kiss;
Around us both the world flies by
But our gazes, cannot die;
You're no model covered in paint,
You're a lady, like a saint.
I think you know and are aware;
Time and time again I wish
All you want is a simple kiss;
Around us both the world flies by
But our gazes, cannot die;
You're no model covered in paint,
You're a lady, like a saint.
Saturday
Boring!
Well, not quite as boring as it could've. I spent time working on this piece of damnation, tweaking templates and such. I spent a good deal of yesterday morning looking for and reading about Gmail and Invitations to it. I want a Gmail account, period, I really could use the space. Played a bit of tacops, I had a few rounds on Jam where I was rocking. Shameless self advertisment: Go b33f!!!
Went out last night to see the Oscar Nominated short films, 6 of them at least; at the OKC Museum of Art. I saw Die Rote Jacke(The Red Jacket), Harvie Crumpet, (A) Torsion, Nibbles, Squash and Perpetual Motion. Die Rote Jacke and (A)Torsion were both set in war torn Sarajevo, thats Bosnia for us westerners. The other 4 were comedies. Harvie Crumpet is a stop motion animation about a Pole who ends up in australia, his bad luck is ocassionally blessed with good luck. Nibbles was a really weird movie about a fishing trip but satirical about consumerism and consumption. Squash was set in a squash court, the entire time; about 2 business men fighting out their differences. Perpetual motion is about cats and jelly.
Well, not quite as boring as it could've. I spent time working on this piece of damnation, tweaking templates and such. I spent a good deal of yesterday morning looking for and reading about Gmail and Invitations to it. I want a Gmail account, period, I really could use the space. Played a bit of tacops, I had a few rounds on Jam where I was rocking. Shameless self advertisment: Go b33f!!!
Went out last night to see the Oscar Nominated short films, 6 of them at least; at the OKC Museum of Art. I saw Die Rote Jacke(The Red Jacket), Harvie Crumpet, (A) Torsion, Nibbles, Squash and Perpetual Motion. Die Rote Jacke and (A)Torsion were both set in war torn Sarajevo, thats Bosnia for us westerners. The other 4 were comedies. Harvie Crumpet is a stop motion animation about a Pole who ends up in australia, his bad luck is ocassionally blessed with good luck. Nibbles was a really weird movie about a fishing trip but satirical about consumerism and consumption. Squash was set in a squash court, the entire time; about 2 business men fighting out their differences. Perpetual motion is about cats and jelly.
Saturday, May 22, 2004
Yesterday
Never seemed so far away.
I also never felt senioritis quite like yesterday. I ditched half my classes, 3rd and 4th hour. I calculus I don't have to do any work but I'm supposed to be in the classroom i guess. I think only literature and government class (out of 8) are the only classes I'm still doing work in. Its really weird, i've never quite felt it this easy at the end of the year.
Anyhow, I ditched class so I could go find my gal, and I did. I'm falling for her pretty fast...I don't know if she is for me. I usually try to pick out 5 traits that I like before I'll go out with a girl, and I've got my five for her. Her happy-go-lucky attitude, intelligence, generous, athletic and she can make me smile. I'm gonna ask her out real soon.
Yesterday evening I didn't work, I really didn't care to. I'm tired of working from 3:40-5:00. Half doing projects and being peoples assistants really grates on me after a while. I figure i'll work next week afterschool (I need the money) and I'm starting full time the 2nd week of june so that will be better.
The china committee stuff is really interesting. I can't talk about the people interviewed for the program, but I can say we've got lots of bright talent coming up and its going to be difficult to decide whos in the program. Its a really special thing, to go on the exchange; I only wish the best for the people in the program. I won't be able to see the china kids in OKC, but I'll try to visit them when they are in DC.
I spent yesterday playing Docter Photoshop to Cran's Mia. She looks so cute with the coke bottle...and the absolut bottle. Thankyou tripkin for the idea, and cran for your psuedo blessings.
I also never felt senioritis quite like yesterday. I ditched half my classes, 3rd and 4th hour. I calculus I don't have to do any work but I'm supposed to be in the classroom i guess. I think only literature and government class (out of 8) are the only classes I'm still doing work in. Its really weird, i've never quite felt it this easy at the end of the year.
Anyhow, I ditched class so I could go find my gal, and I did. I'm falling for her pretty fast...I don't know if she is for me. I usually try to pick out 5 traits that I like before I'll go out with a girl, and I've got my five for her. Her happy-go-lucky attitude, intelligence, generous, athletic and she can make me smile. I'm gonna ask her out real soon.
Yesterday evening I didn't work, I really didn't care to. I'm tired of working from 3:40-5:00. Half doing projects and being peoples assistants really grates on me after a while. I figure i'll work next week afterschool (I need the money) and I'm starting full time the 2nd week of june so that will be better.
The china committee stuff is really interesting. I can't talk about the people interviewed for the program, but I can say we've got lots of bright talent coming up and its going to be difficult to decide whos in the program. Its a really special thing, to go on the exchange; I only wish the best for the people in the program. I won't be able to see the china kids in OKC, but I'll try to visit them when they are in DC.
I spent yesterday playing Docter Photoshop to Cran's Mia. She looks so cute with the coke bottle...and the absolut bottle. Thankyou tripkin for the idea, and cran for your psuedo blessings.
Friday, May 21, 2004
Purpose
@ school..fixing a computer, software installing in the background.
Not like this is going to be a charter for my blog or anything, just a little dity of why I'm doing this.
This isn't the first time I've tried this. I tried a blog on my first website 6 years ago. I had tried to keep a slashdot journal. I had a blog on blogspot at one point in time. Now, I've got this one. Unlike the others, I plan on keeping this one.
I want this one to document the end of my highschool life, my summer, the transition from being a kid in oklahoma to being a college student in DC. I just want a place to publish my thoughts. Mabye even my love life. Possibly even the work i'll be doing (but that could get rather repetitive this summer).
Not like this is going to be a charter for my blog or anything, just a little dity of why I'm doing this.
This isn't the first time I've tried this. I tried a blog on my first website 6 years ago. I had tried to keep a slashdot journal. I had a blog on blogspot at one point in time. Now, I've got this one. Unlike the others, I plan on keeping this one.
I want this one to document the end of my highschool life, my summer, the transition from being a kid in oklahoma to being a college student in DC. I just want a place to publish my thoughts. Mabye even my love life. Possibly even the work i'll be doing (but that could get rather repetitive this summer).
Test?
Is this thing on? I'm ripping The Dark Side of the Moon..i hope it finishes before I leave for school so I can have it for school today.
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